Getting it right

Oh irritating , oh anansumating , so nothing seems right . Owed an explanation , owed the time of day . Spoiled or soiled what one describes what happened . Oh misery , oh mistakes . Right or wrong , losses more than wins . Questions never answered . Owed a smack on the inner door . Owed more than this ? self  entitlement  ,or a selfish need to adore . Agonising over flushing change down the drain . To get it right one has to loose to much , people , places, old believes , a stuck in a rut attitude , a hope to late to get . So irritated , so cut off . I owe myself a second chance . I owe my cold anansumating lustful , do as your told actions a hug . Right stuff it's not enough to wish for you , not enough to search for you . Nothing built in a day but if I don't keep knocking down what is wrong then I will never find what's right . If I calm , hesitate more , go with the flow less . Leaving old harmful habits will lead the way to the right . I hope so anyway .