Ghosts That Haunt Me

I can’t get rid of it,
It won’t go away,
It won’t die down,
It tortures my soul.

It shreds my heart like a thousand knives,
It burns up my soul like walking on hot coals,
It shatters my humanity like a hammer onto glass,
I am trapped inside my own little world,
By a monster I feared for so very long now.

Little diamond tears fall from my face,
As I heavily fall from my grace,
The injustice it kills me,
The anger it pains me,
The weight of all these crushing tides flattens joy into nothing worth feeling.

I toss and I turn,
Trying to wake up,
My own head is destroying me while I'm at my most vulnerable,
My tears soak into the bedsheets,
Until suddenly I wake,
Its all gone,
It was just a dream,
But the feeling is still there,
I realise with a cold sensation,
It is all the things I have been running away from.

Ghosts of my past haunt my soul,
Ghosts of my present crush my heart,
Ghosts of my future squeeze any life from the feeling of joy.