going out

You wouldn't know it unless you saw
The years cried away, the countless scars
The days lost wasted in dope fed space
The night fight wounds you now trace
The loss of loves because I'm a fool
Just a pawn in a game, just another tool
But this time is different, playing for keeps
Not gonna be another body beneath bloodstained sheets
Not gonna go out with a needle instead
I'm gonna go out giving out the one thing free
That Jesus died for both you and me