gone

moods swinging to good 
as i give a thought of you and our last days

Now
my body feels numb to my every action...

could have been from all the wine drinking.... 
smooth talking and gentle touching i am missing.

or could  have been from just sitting there listening 
looking into you big white eyes...
and 
the way you circle your tongue upon your lips,
  before and after each drink 

trying to think at times what went wrong
it is not easy....

cant think clearly
since you left

i dont know what i am doing at times
or how to leave this all
to settle behind and move on...

being  alone and the thought of
no woman You becomes,
a misery to my heart....

how can i love without the scent of you ? 
how can i love without your eyes upon my eyes?
or my heart caressing your best....with a smile