Good Enough

They say you can’t please them all. So much for confidence, I should’ve known all along. I know I probably shouldn’t waste my mind on one girl. I mean it has happened once more before but I didn’t let it go to my head cause she belong to the world. I was shocked, stunned, but I was doing a bad deed anyway so I’m the end I looked dumb. What was I supposed to think she didn’t even cum. 

Something like this some people will say is a lack of maturity. This is just a problem that In I’m just trying to find clarity. You see this is something I’m not sure I understand fully. Lord gave me it, I should’ve been more humble my incompetence allowed me to fool me. I guess that’s what I get for avoiding my purity. I played myself and she ended up triggering my insecurity. 

It seem like all in my mind, I thought myself tough. The words she said were just steel wool scrubbing a pot that was rough. She don’t know I felt like crying after every person I touched. I mean after everyone of them girls my little ego was crushed. Talking to myself like was I big enough? Did she feel me inside of her am I long enough? Did I do it as nasty as she liked was it hood enough? Even if yes answered those questions overall was I good enough?

I shouldn’t feel bad because she was still my friend. After all that went down I really should’ve known then. Mindset was like fuck it at least I got a win. Stuck on stupid I was better off winning from within. I guess I just didn’t do enough for our energies to blend. I should just be glad that our friendship didn’t end. Im okay with it not being good enough. I’m okay knowing that I may not be good enough.