Good vibes, good times , good energy

I'm feelin froggy 
dropped the bad habit 
left it standing 
dine and dash 
I don't owe you nothing 
I spent many years 
That only led to many fears 
And it appears, I've had enough , I can't stand it , I never planned it , but 32 years taken from me , IM tired of being disappointed... I WANNA BE PROUD OF WHO I AM, no more allowing sickness , change couldn't be quick enough , I had to learn patience , it can't come overnight but the flaws to numb the cause can be instant, madness Abra cadaver it's not magic R.I.P you becoming the best you could be , I cannot flee me, I rather be lonely and working on becoming somebody than rely on continuing to be a narcissist feeding off bad energy from a relationship , who am I, I cannot blame others for my past pain, I must change who I am before I can provide happiness for myself, useless cause, IMPOSSIBLE but I must end this madness and this poem on a positive note, WE ALL HAVE GREATNESS , WE MUST JUST FIND IT , ITS WITHIN OUR PURPOSE , NOT ALWAYS ON THE SURFACE , KEEP FINDING TO GROW AND BE A LEADER TO HELP FIND IT FOR OTHERS, BE STRONG FOR ONE ANOTHER ! that's what's weighing heavy on my heart .