Goodbye to u

Alone again another night. 
I’m on my cell that shines the only light. 
There’s pictures of u on my cell. 
Looking at them brings on hell. 
I’m so tired of not feeling well. 
What I would do to hug u just to smell ur smell. 
I’ll never get over u giving up on me. 
I hope ur happy now that I’m gone & ur free. 
I’m so exhausted of letting my feelings show. 
I’m so low that I feel the only thing beside me is my shadow. 
It’s been years I need to let go of my pain. 
I don’t want to remain insane. 
I need to break free of this chain. 
Tonight I want to start new,
By saying goodbye to u. 
It would help to accept the fact that ur gone & not coming back.
& to get familiar with this darkness that’s so black. 
I have to accept that ur gone forever.  
& it’s going to hurt bad before it gets better. 
But this is where I have to start,
Even though it breaks my heart. 
I’m so done of letting my tears show. 
I now know I have to pick myself up from this damaging blow. 
It’s been years I need to let go of my pain. 
I need to heal my heart & my brain. 
I need to break free of this chain. 
Tonight I want to start new,
By saying goodbye to u.