Grandma Penny

Grandma penny 

You were my absolute world, my oyster my pearl. I loved your dog the spaniel called merl.

23 years I got to have you in my life, I'm so blessed you were here but now my life is full of strife.

I remember the day I found out you got cancer, it was my birthday, what a terrible answer.

The months that followed were far and few between. You had good days and bad days and some days you didn't want to be seen.

I remember being snappy with you for not eating your meal, forgive me I didn't realise you were on such a spinning wheel. 

I'm so sorry for that what A selfish person I was, I didn't realise the struggle you were going through whilst others around you were being pos.

Such memories we had together, baking and laughing. All the jigsaws and puzzles and just general faffing. 

When I got older you were my shoulder to cry on, I wish the cancer didn't take you this disease is such a con.

I remember the last days and you told me to buy a blue dress, that was the last real time you spoke to me without all the drugs and the stress. 

The day that you passed I will never forget, I held your soft hand and cradled you as I wept.

I was given the opportunity to see you one more time, in the chapel of rest, my heart beating so loud I wasn't sure it was mine.

You looked so different but I knew it was you, smartly dressed with all your treasures, this was it, the last time just us two.

So I said my goodbyes and cried so hard, my heart felt so black, so charred. 

The funeral came and I wore that blue dress, wore it for you wanted to look my best. 

It's been just over two years now and the feelings still there, the pain in my soul that your not here to share. 

I miss our phone calls and you listening to me moan, sometimes I just stare and go into my own zone.

So rest in peace grandma penny I love you so much, what I wouldn't give to feel one last touch