Grief is a Monster
There are self help books on grief
Counseling if you prefer the personal touch
Support groups for less isolation
Time, that is to heal all wounds
But,
Grief is a unique and enormous foe
It follows a horrific loss,
Rational mind separates from emotion
A sense of unreality numbs for a bit
But if my truth were told
Grief is a fucking monster
It stalks every waking moment
It crushes my relationship
It has isolated my spirit and soul
Perched on a brink of utter rage at God
That filters into a loss of respect of self
Lipstick and curling irons just have no value
They sit unused like relics from another age
I stare past them daily
Days pass without value
Holidays only feed the monster
I have tried to out run him
I thought In could slay it
Carve out the beating heart
Hold it out for effect
But, no, I am not fast enough
Not mean enough, not tough enough
Not forgiving enough
To do what I surely must do to win
Learn to love myself again
Learn to love God again
Angels are waiting
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Comments
Grief is, indeed, a monster ... a most terrible one 😭. Hugs x
You have described things in here that I completely relate to Raeleen, nothing that is written or said can ever be relevant to a grieving parent. Grief is more than a monster it is a fkn black hole with teeth that chew you slowly every second of every day and in my case... this will continue forever. It is a rage as huge as the cosmos and the bleakest lonliest most desperate place a person can ever find themselves in, it is the death of sense, reason, hope, faith and purpose. It burns hotter than any hell and disfigures the parent for life. Wish I could offer comfort but despite what people spout...there is none. Hugs ❤
Marion I can only tell you how much I wish you did not understand. But I can see that you do. After all the emptiness I had to try to do something to feel real again It is a
exersize in last ditch efforts... ONe thing writing has helped with pouring out emotions onto the digital world. It has given me an outlet and a goal.