Happiness

in my 47 years on this earth
I never got my childbirth,
Lost before I even knew
And dream of what we'd do.
Never allowed to be happy
Never to change my child's nappy.
My angel baby I have never forgot you 
I try not to be so blue.
A teenager you would be now
And my life is sad without you here.
But I will always hold you dear,
Why is life so bad never ever to
Be happy and full
Always having bad luck 
Alone in this world stuck in a rut.
No home no one to love me
For this is just to plain to see
All I want is settle down and have my own home 
So I can roam as I please 
No fear of being kicked out 
And for nobody to shout 
How life would have been so 
Different if I had you here
I would have held you so tight
Loved you with all my might
So this little poem is for you 
My Lexi angel baby I love you x