Happiness, were have you gone!

Is it just me!?
Or do others feel the way I do?
Can people see?
If they think and feel it too?
A life not being lived!
Floating around and just exsisting!
If happiness comes, I for one won't be resisting!
U can not chase it, it just won't be caught,
And for all the money in the world, it can not be bought,
You either have it or you don't,
And it can come, and it can go,
It will be within you, or it won't,
How long it will stay u just won't know,
They say what doesn brake us makes us stronger,
Yet I keep on being broken, and I don't think I can stand it for very much longer,
I have a massive front, and a brick wall around my true self,
I can't let people hurt me any more, it's damaging my health,
I am how I am, and I feel as I do,
This isn't a true reflection of me,
You are who you are, n you are you,
With out realising, your taking away my identity, 
Please happiness just give me a shot,
I'm really not greedy, I don't need a lot,
Just a little touch, just to let me live a happier life,
To have good things happen, an not always be strife,
I know ul come and see me, life isn't always so bad,
And do u know when you visit, I'll be so very glad,