I think, I feel, I am,

What a year this has been
Looking back I could just scream
What good would screaming do
It wouldn't erase the old and replace with a happy New!
I can easily say it's been one of the worst!
And I'm starting to wonder! Maybe I'm cursed
Then upon taking a step back, and taking a minute to think​​​​​​
Is it that bad? Am I really on the brink!?
When I get mad and start to feel sorrow!
I just hope and pray for a better tomorrow!
A tomorrow when all my loved ones are well!
In order to create a happier spell!
I know they can't help being mentally ill!
I just wish they would see, i have feelings still!
It's seems to some, i don't think, I don't feel,
I have learnt not to show it, but my feelings are real,
I do matter, I do count, I am a human being,
It's the mental illness that stops them from thus seing,
So consumed in themselves, and feeling sad,
Life's all about them, and it's driving me mad,