Happy Birthday

So it is a difficult date
But I am feeling okay
I kept myself busy 
On what is his birthday

Wait is it still a birthday,
when you're no longer alive?
Do we forget we are born,
Remember til when we survive?

I didn't get to share
Many of these with him
In my life sometimes
Out of it on a whim

It feels odd not to cry
So much we now miss
Much we missed in life
You lived in an abyss

I wish you were here
Tell me everything is fine
Daddy's girl made a cake
Today you'd be fifty nine

I'll sing to you tonight
In my dreams we'll meet
Blow out your candles Dad
Then we'll party in the street

Like we did that year
Dancing on red square
Laughing with each other
Nothing else can compare