Hate for myself!!

And now I'm broken
my life has fallen apart
I knew I should have stayed away
and now i don't know where to start.

I fell for you with all I have
and I knew that it was wrong
Now I have my heart destroyed 
like I knew all along.

I don't know how to get through this
when your constantly in my head
I don't know how to let you go
when all is done and said

so I sit here with a blade
As I don't know what to do
to take away the pain
I feel of losing you

I should never have let you in
to my heart, my soul and life
And while I lay here breaking
your cuddled with your wife!

So thats the bitch that I am
written for all to see
I fell in love with a married man
and nothing can set me free

So I punish myself 
for everything I've done
and I have to live knowing
I can never have "The One".