have you ever?

Have you ever felt your breathe wanna leave you?
Have you ever felt as if your whole being is conspiring against you?
Like even the very same soul that you have lead you away from you?
Have you ever felt that you no longer do certain things just because you can
Instead you do them coz your soul wants you?
Have you felt captive within your own body and mind?
I feel that all the time!
I feel it every moment when ever
I see your picture pass my mind!
I see it when ever I close my eyes!
I feel it ever I hear the calling of your name!
I feel filling up every inch of my body and soul!
I wonder sometimes ukuthi how is it possible that
One can feel so much...
Then I remember that
Even for loving you I have always wondered
How is it possible...
I remembered that mind does not choose where it falls coz that's the job of a hearts department
I remembered that when I fell for you it was so deep that
I even forgot to look up coz
I was amazed by this torture and brutality called love
But know dis coz I know that loving you is my whole life times job which I can never resign from...