Head space

Nobody knows the place I'm in
Or all the dark days that there have been
God please help me and forgive all my sins
I need help and can't keep this in
For sometime I've been on my own struggling
​​​​​so I thought I'd tell you in my poem
I can't admit I've been crying
And sometimes I feel like dying
Trying to find my peace
I don't know who I am or what my purpose  is or why my brain 
Resurfaces this 
I need to go for a while so I can handle this shit in my own style
I have extreme fear of abandonment 
And I'm trying to hide it
I've gotta go im crumbling
I know I'm running even though I'm stumbling 
Everyone has become a stranger but I have to go so I don't blame them
I know I'll someday be ok and I'll be fine
What else could I say
Looking for better days
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