Heals Nothing

Everything stood still

You could hear the sound of an ink drop

As I sat and drunk away tot by tot

All my worries and thoughts.

Vehemently as I drunk,

My bowel felt quite full but-

My worries weighed quiet much more than before.

With streams of warm sweat,

Tickling my face, back and belly

I felt funny within

As my system begun to intoxicate.

That is a symptom of its digestion !

This thought rushed in my head

As a flash of light

and with an eruption of laughter,

I uttered a nonsensical gibberish

I am happy!

It never made sense but

I was the happiest

In the world's crystal eyes

For in a while I was going to be

Liberated from all my worries and cares

Suddenly, it all came to a speedy dwindle

And to an abrupt halt.

And my naive quote;

Happiness always lasts longer with alcohol

Ate me up-

So suddenly!

Perhaps my burdens were too hard

For the catalyst to soften

Like a boiled rock, too hard to be cooked soft.

My fears, depression, nightmares, anger and self-hatred

Appeared so naked and domineering

With an ever new energy

My brains has now revived and back to normal once again

As a result of their time out.

It is true a man drinks his worries away not his brains.

They kept coming and coming

So I doubled the reaction

And became sober again

But still with an awaiting fears

For I saw alcohol is just a first aid,

It heals nothing.