Heart -less

I wish my mind was as fresh as the frost in the first days of winter
I wish my legs were as fast as the jaguars that travel the roads
I wish my heart was as warm as that freshly made cup of tea sat on the side
I wish my mind wasnt as empty as my bed
I wish my bed wasnt as empty as my mind
I wish all these things for one thing
So that i wont be so depressed
But you cant wish away reccuring thoughts and contradictions
You cant wish away needing a cigarette and inside afflictions
You cant wish away whats on the inside
You can only change whats on the outside
But im so sick of all these things it feels as if my fingers are blistered and falling apart
Its as if hes as dead as me and doesnt have a heart
Little to know thats exactly what i want
Someone to know me and not be afraid
Of what i might say
Of what i might do and who i may see, of what i was if i were to be free
But tied down, with rules and regulations
I havent got any, the virtue, patience
I cant wait around for happiness to come
I need it know i dont want to be numb
But thats why i wish, i wish away
The things i know, that cant change