Mind -less

My mind is empty
Which is unusual
Considering usually its filled with the most
Horrible thoughts
But tonight
All i have
Is the rain trickling down the window pain
Making those innocent sounds that soothe my veins
Its hard to take a breath
When the air is so dusty
Nostalgic memories fill the room
Not good ones either, filled with gloom
I feel sick to my stomach
As if satan was in my soul himself
Taking over every part of my brain
Consuming all this nonsence pain
I bring it on myself
Why do i still wonder
At how things could change
If maybe i was a little different
Filled with less conflict
But when my mind is so loud
I cant help but surround
Myseld with all these friendly demons
Because theyre the only ones
Who truly know me