Helplessness

The sensation piercing my heart,

And her sight still making it dart.

Pulling me out again from my harness,

Giving me a feeling of helplessness.

History continues to repeat,

I am always the one left with defeat.

And I am the one committing mistake,

Living my life at others' stake.

I laugh at myself for the things,

At being played by other beings.

Traveling barefooted on the highway,

With people giving single shoes & mocking away.

People say cry & frustration wipes away,

But what if the tears have been wiped away.

And when I try to close my eyes & weep,

Her face comes in view and takes a sweep.

But now my heart enjoys this pain,

Happiness in my life comes in vain.

Because pain is still bearable,

The end of happy days makes it miserable.

There are questions deep in my heart,

Oh Lord why do the happy days end in a dart.

And then they leave the nights prolonged,

With the months of winters forever elonged.

Now my eyes wish to shut,

Giving this thing called “love” a cut.

Because in my life such things don’t exist,

And so there is no need for pretext.

Oh Lord just one question to you,

In your world are there men too few.

Because why does this suffering always target me,

Am I that unfavourite to thee?

With my smile losing its meaning,

Because there is no reason for this feeling.

And after all the futility of happiness,

Comes back my despair and helplessness.

The sensation piercing my heart,

And her sight still making it dart.

Pulling me out again from my harness,

Giving me a feeling of helplessness.

History continues to repeat,

I am always the one left with defeat.

And I am the one committing mistake,

Living my life at others' stake.

I laugh at myself for the things,

At being played by other beings.

Traveling barefooted on the highway,

With people giving single shoes & mocking away.

People say cry & frustration wipes away,

But what if the tears have been wiped away.

And when I try to close my eyes & weep,

Her face comes in view and takes a sweep.

But now my heart enjoys this pain,

Happiness in my life comes in vain.

Because pain is still bearable,

The end of happy days makes it miserable.

There are questions deep in my heart,

Oh Lord why do the happy days end in a dart.

And then they leave the nights prolonged,

With the months of winters forever elonged.

Now my eyes wish to shut,

Giving this thing called “love” a cut.

Because in my life such things don’t exist,

And so there is no need for pretext.

Oh Lord just one question to you,

In your world are there men too few.

Because why does this suffering always target me,

Am I that unfavourite to thee?

With my smile losing its meaning,

Because there is no reason for this feeling.

And after all the futility of happiness,

Comes back my despair and helplessness.