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I open my mouth but the words just don't come out.
I try to write but the words are so unclear no one can read it. 
I try to speak clearly but my words just get mumbled. 
I try to calm down but I can't.
I try to stop crying but the tears still fall from my eyes.
I try to sleep but my brain doesn't realise. 
I was born different but I look the same as everyone else
When i see shooting star my wish is always the same, i wish to be normal and not this way. 
I am a person that can get obsessed easily and make sure that everyone around me knows it. 
I find it so hard to make friends that sometimes I just blow it.
I can easily be mean without even knowing it. 
College is harder for me as I can't concentrate, the room has to be dead silent for me to get my head straight.
When I was in school I didn't have help.
My parents asked for it but their request was never noticed.
It took one doctor to change the schools mind but in the end they tried to fix it by making me type. 
Sometimes I have the confidence to take over the world but sometimes I can't even say three words. 
My mood and my mind can change faster than the wind but still I asked for help but help they didn't give.
When I was younger they gave me tablets to help my concentration.
I had a bad side effect that helped one of my situations.
One day I was a fat kid that ate it all then a few month later I was so thin and small. 
The doctors worried, but in my head I was fine I was getting into less trouble and actually doing my work and giving it in on time. A year later and no more side effects was showing.
I still can't spell every word that comes to mind. 
When I was younger I always thought that it'll just happen over night.
My memory is bad.
Its easy for me to forget.
My phone is full of reminders just so i can stay on check.
I still talk too much and fidget all the time and I act without thinking which causes a lot of hate sometimes.
My sleeping pattern is all over the place but thankfully my mind can work with just a few hours of sleep.
I always think how my life would be different if I wasn't this way. Would I've got good grades at school, or would I have different friends?
I still don't know all the answers and i know i never will but I just want people to know what people like me have to go have to live like.
I have lived my life with the tags of ADHD and dyspraxia holding me back, and I just want to break Thru all of that. No I'm not normal and I'm not the same , my head plays a different game. Where I'm always different because of bad connections in my brain. 
I was born this way and that is just something that I have to accept. Because loads of wishes and hoping isn't going to change that.