Hopefully my last

Moving through their eyes,
They are blind,
They see me,
But they dont anything,
I want to leave,
Fear I wont be found,
Do I want to be found,
Will anything even matter,
Will anyone care,
What will be the tale,
What do you say to the young kids,
I feel ignored,
Am I an attention seeker,
The pills lay there,
The water waits,
My heart beating,
My eyes sting,
I love you,
Im sorry,
I cant be part of your journey anymore,
Goodbye,
I do love you all,
It has nothing to do with you,
I just cant love myself.