Hopeless Failure

Nothing I have ever done 
Has ever made anyone proud
In fact I've cried myself to sleep
And asked why my happiness isn't allowed

I have made many bad choices 
Never seem to get the upper hand
Each day the positivity lessens
And the negative is more than I can stand

I swear I am trying my best
Everyone screws up from time to time
Why do I always get singled out 
Why is me smiling such a crime

No one has to agree with my decisions 
But at least try to be there
I see so many people mess up worse
And have more love, it just isn't fair 

I try my hardest 
Honestly I do 
For once can my happiness
Just be good enough for you?