How do I run?

How do I run from what I can't see?
     I can hear it and feel it, the depletion of who I am. 
Who will I become?
    Something that was hidden deep down is now itching at the surface. 
Could this be a new start?
     It could be the end of something ugly, and the start of something beautiful.
Is this a personal battle between light and dark?
     I do not know which will win. I make out neither lightness or darkness, I just perceive myself as uninhabited. 
Am I feeling this void because I don't know how to feel?
     Maybe I'm just scared.
What if I let myself be consumed in the passion and warmth of love, just to get hurt once again?
     I don't know if I can endure anymore wounds. 
Will choosing darkness help to fill this void?