Hunger deep inside

A hunger deep inside.

Pulls at my linings and cramps to my heart strings.

Intense, painful, and raw.

Feels burnt to Ashes.

Pulsating dashes in moments leaving me gasping for air.

Drink nor food can't quench it's increasing gain.

In search of a remedy to numb this darn pain.

Read books, drawing sketches, even writing poetry to fill the time to escape the pain with my mind.

Focused on work and all things routine.

And still can't shake this deep hunger painful feeling present all the time.

Seems to become a companion of mine, always there to remind me of its ever close presence.

After a while I got to face the fear.  Need to escape from this deep hunger pain of mine.

No pill or a drink nothing not something edible but rather someone more incredible was the cure. I knew her well and she lived inside once before.

The sparkle in her eyes, the touch of her hands to her finger tips and intense subtle kiss of her lips.

The sound of her voice, the scent of her hair combined with the love in her care.

From the raising of her eye brows to the wide grin. When she lived there building my heart feeling like home all was fine, spectacular and devine.

Many a time I do wonder if she thinks of me. Has she moved on and built a new home. Does she feel empty as I do with this pain. Could we ever reunite and refill this home. 

The feeling of her being near was strong enough to chase all fear. She brought in the light and made things clear.

Passenger said it best...

"Well you see her when you fall asleep

But never to touch and never to keep

Cause you loved her too much and you dived too deep"

The crippling Hunger deep inside,

Now my daily companion and a friend serves as reminder of the time I let you go... my comfort and only ease I need now more than before.