I can make a difference!

Mommy's back, she's still on crack.

She walks through the door with scars on her back.

What has she been doing I wonder in the depths of my mind.

Has she been smoking weed or committing crimes?

Is she gonna die today?

God please no, don't take her away!

Where did daddy go, we need him now?

It's so loud, I can barely hear a sound.

Mummy's passed out on the bathroom floor.

Her drunk boyfriends still here waiting by the door.

Who's he calling on the phone?

It sounds familiar to a woman's tone.

Is he cheating on mummy?

Does she know?

Oh gosh, why won't he go?

I'm quivering, shaking, shivering 

the landlord is banging on the door.

I'm sitting in my corner, staring at the wall.

I really wish I could forget it all.

When did mummy become this way?

When do I get an education and a proper happy life?

Does mummy even know I exist? This makes me wanna cry.

Mummy wakes up and she wakes up rough.

She pushes me in my room and acts all tough.

She heads towards the door and slams it in her boyfriends face.

She heads back in my room and stares me down like I'm a disgrace.

She says to me...

"WHAT DID YOU DO?"

I reply nothing, cause, mummy, I'm scared of you!

"Answer me now!" 

She screams me my ear.

I look right at her, she disappears.

She goes back to her room and slams the door shut, screaming through the walls.

"I WISH YOU WOULD CUT"

I cry myself to sleep praying this is a dream.

But this is my life, why is mummy so mean?

She used to bake me cookies and kisses me goodnight.

Daddy used to bring me toys in the middle of the night.

Then Daddy left and gave mummy a fright.

Daddy said he would come back for his little bundle of joy.

But those lies fill my head, cause he is dead...

I want my life back to the way it was,

I know now to appreciate what I have because...

I have a mum, no matter how rude.

I'm breathing and living, even though I don't have much food.

I have a house, no matter how little.

I also have a mouse, I named her Skittle.

I'm grateful for what I have no matter how little.

Cause these struggles in life help me realize.

I CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!

I CAN get through the hard times!

I CAN love my life!

And when this is all over, I can finally take flight.

I can move away and set sail at sea.

I can discover what's inside of me.

Please never give up, no matter how rough!

Life can get tough, but it's the struggles life put you through that make other people respect you.