I can't find the words

I can't find the words 
 

My heart ache and stomach churns,

I wish to speak but my words left me long time wandering off the coast of I don't know what happened.

My lips quiver and and my body shivers,

Something inside of me triggers,

My heart has made peace with silence and sent my words to the land of disobedience.

My eyes see, my ears hear but as a mute my lips have taste the beer from the factory of don't say anything.