I Didn't Just Cut You Off

You stand there as if you've done no wrong.
While I've suffered at your hands for so long....too long.
Now you act like the victim and I'm insane.

While I remember every moment of your abuse as it is seared into my brain.

You bombard me with messages of your apologies and "I love yous."
And all of your actions are right on cue.

I've learned your motives and your schemes.
Now the only thing I hear is the child that mourns you and their screams.

I didn't just cut you out of my life.

I cut you out of me.

At least now we'll both bleed.

Only I won't be comforting you and saying it's okay.

Because it wasn't and it's still not.

Now I stand here, my roots firmly planted as I cut down this family tree and stand alone on my plot.

I did this for my survival.
You've only seen me as rival.
So afraid of my success, but yet wanted me to be successful so I could provide for you?
Everything I was going to be, would that be all thanks to you too?
I guess we'll never know.

I destroyed everything you wanted me to be because it was all for you and not me.
I will not say "I'm sorry" anymore.
I will not walk on eggshells and I will not open the door.

You have set this crumbling foundation and now I've found I have to be my own salvation.
You act as if you hadn't made it so I don't know the person in the mirror.
I look at you, anger in my eyes. 
Why do you still keep to your lies?!