I Don't Know Why

I don't know why I do the things I do,
I don't know why I'm the way I am, 
I don't know why, but every time you call me clingy I just wanna die, 
I don't know why tears fill my eyes every time I say goodnight,
I don't know why I feel such sadness when your not around,
Or why I get angry over being sad,
I don't know why memories still haunt me in my sleep, 
Or why I can still smell death lurking in the dark,
I don't know why the young have to die,
Or why we have to fight the wars are elders start,
I don't know why my country doesn't care about my life, 
But I cared enough for her to lay my life down,
I don't know why I am here do you?
Oh father can you please tell me why