Into the Abyss

Sitting all alone by the fire, as my despairs grow ever brighter. The warm glow should comfort me, yet alas, I grow ever more distraught. For my life is in shambles I can not undo, and yet here I ramble about days long gone. Days were my life seemed full of meaning and purpose, yet now I see nothing but utter darkness. Surrounded by light but all is black, with all my might I cry out for hope. My cries are never heard and I am left wondering, wondering ever longer in the dreaded darkness of my life. I tried so hard but yet I fell so far down, down into an abyss with no way out. I did it myself with no ones else blame, and those around I drug down to. Yet they were offered escape and fled they did, while alone I sat and bled from a rusty blade. A blade pull from the life I can not escape, try as I must but to no avail for I can't out run my past. It hangs over me like a dark sinister cloud, bringing nothing but pain and sorrow. I sit here writing as the embers durn down, knowing all to well the end is nearing ever closer. A loser by design I'm all but washed up, nothing left to lose nor gain. So farewell to you whom I loved, with heavy heart I say goodbye. But know that until my final breath, you were the one I gave my heart unto. So take care not cry, don't wast your tears that you'll need again one day.