I DON'T WANT TO NEED

I don't want to need
 And yet it's there, inside
A feeling I can't get rid of
A need that's been denied
I try not to feel it
As I push it away
But the emptiness lingers
From day to day
It's there below the surface
It comes back up for air
I try to keep my distance
But I know it's always there
I don't want to need
To speak up or say a word
I remember all too well
How it feels to not be heard
I can't give to myself
What I needed from you
I dismissed my needs
And turn a deaf ear, too
You ask me how that's working?
I have to say; Not so well
The hardest thing I've ever done
Was try to break out of my shell