I Fear

I fear that 
One day I will not be afraid at all
This hasty feeling throbs my intestines
And I do not like it at all
I am not sure if it is the trauma flashes
Or the penance of self-denial
Traitors gnash behind their thin built fences
Whether their tongues slither like bush snakes
or roar like the lion king
it does not scare me a bit
I fear that a day will come that 
I will be numb to fear
Or is it the emotional intellectual 
 and physical pain endured?
I am afraid I will lose myself
To self-deception
My consciousness to fear is slowly
Sliding towards a narrow path
I fear that I will end up doing stupid acts 
In the name of bravery
Let alone hurting myself or others
I grin in suffocation
I lack more empathy and sympathy a bit
I have nothing but scorn towards this feel
But I cannot help it!