I hate...

I hate not being with you.
I hate us being apart.
I hate knowing you're home alone and on your own.
And that's only the start.

I hate missing us.
I hate being without thee.
I hate that our kids and we,
aren't part of the same, historic,
family tree.  
I'd hate it if unlike now,
Our unclipped wings,
Wouldn't be free.
I'd hate it,
If I looked into the future,
And us,
It wouldn't see.
I couldn't live like that.
How could it ever possibly be!
I'd hate not waking up to My coffee,
And your strong,
First thing,
Cup of tea.
A future without you in it,
Isn't the right one for me!

I hate not being able to be with you.
When I'm here and you're there.
I hate missing the simple things,
Like running my fingers,
Through your dark and silky hair.
You coming here to mine,
Or me staying with you.
In your lair.
I hate the fact we can't be together,
Each breathing in,
The same oxygenated air.
Nothing about being cooped up at home,
Seems to us,
to be fair.
I hate not being able to see my loved one.
For the next 10 days,
Our love will be rare.
No parting kisses or hello hugs,
Nor laying entwined,
Completely bare.
A phone call,
Text or video chat.
Are the only ways,
To show how much we care!

I do love hearing her voice though.
Or see her smiling,
Ear to ear.
We lasted this long through the covid storm.
There's no way that our end is near.
No matter my health,
How I feel about it.
How It I fear.
I've just got to cling onto my fate,
And keep going,
Till at least,
My 85th year!
There's no way I'll be beaten.
When I've my partners and our kids extra will power,
And her much needed,
Happiness and Cheer!
I love you Miss White,
And if not for covid,
Wish that you were here!
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