I hate you

I hate you
So much
That it makes me want to scream
Scream for you to come back
Scream for you to save me from the darkness of my own making
Scream because of the fact that you don’t want to come back
But I can’t scream so I cry
And cry
And beg for the pain to end
And for all the feelings for you and reminders of you to leave me be
But I will never be rid of you
Because no matter how much I let you hurt me I love you
More than life itself.