I just don't belong

I just don't belong

‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍I had received word from others

that I must confess.

The voices in my head are saying,

"My life is a mess!"

Daily I struggle with anxiety

that keeps me so uptight.

I'm so far into the darkness

that I've lost all sight of the light.

I can't even think straight

and I jump to conclusions.

My whole life has been nothing 

but an optical illusion.

I despise what I have become 

and everything I see.

I'm so messed up in the head

way far beyond degree.

So I sit alone in the dark

bow my head and softly cry.

I want the pain to stop!

Or better yet Die!

Explosions in my head!

Massive confusion!

I can't even escape from

this terrible intrusion.

My life has No meaning,

No purpose, No drive.

I can't fight the demons

who bury me alive.

I'm sick of what I've become

and how my life has been.

I can't save myself 

so it's time to come to an end.

So walk away please,

because I'm a Disease.

A virus so contagious

you'll never have peace

My life is in ruins;

Being born was all wrong!

I finally come to realized

that I just don't belong.