I lied

I lied when I said I like you because I was truly trying to love you

I lied when I said I like you because I was ashamed of myself and deception was a good friend of mine

They say misery likes company , I can attest to that because I was constantly someone’s confidant

I use to belittle peoples mind to believing that I accepted them when really

I didn’t believe in myself let alone the one who made me

He says I am the way the truth and the life and I used to murmur light

Trying to sound anointed because of a synonym when really, darkness was all I knew that light was just a word I could murmur

I lied

I lied when I said I was Christian because really look at me

I used to judge and deception was all I spread

Making everyone believe in themselves while planting indecisiveness

I lied when I said I knew him because my soul lied with lies and deception became my groom

He sat with me and painted my face that red lips looked soo good to everyone they held on to every lost word leaving my mind

I lied when I said I am free because I was entrapped in all my curses trusting the promises we made together

I lied when I said I was free because tears dropped each day when I sat alone knowing he saw me, smiled when someone I had to deceive was around

I was hurting when as asked, I was great because I served a living God

 An amazing God when I didn’t believe myself

What a lie I spread, lied past everything, ended up lying to myself

Here I stand saying Lord I am sorry I lied

I am sorry for serving you tea and coffee when sharing our conversation with him

I am so sorry and as I stand I am done

I need you, I am lost and cannot be listened or followed when I have failed to follow you