I miss you

Hey old best friend. Old lover. The one I thought that would be my forever. My strength and my laughter. My own special treasure.Ā
Iām so sorry. For hurting you.
I didnāt know that your heart was being abused.Ā
By me. I was just scared. A kid scared to fall in love.Ā
But I have always loved you from the very first day. When you asked me if I need help. I loved you in every single way.Ā
And no matter how long itās been, Since we last talked. Iāll always love you. Always want you. You are my first choice. And always will be.Ā
But I should have shown it through.Ā
Through talking and loving. Giving you affection. Those couple times we hugged, I could barely function. Set me off edge into a world of pure happiness.Ā
Iād see your face and mine would light up like a bright summers day. My heart would race. And It sink down my chest, Bcs it was Me that you found. The true me. And it had made me so happy. That with you my true self would be brought about.Ā
But I had fucked up! This perfect relationship! And I havenāt heard your voice in two years. That perfect comforting voice. It felt like home. YOU were my home. And now Iām homeless! And Iām not alone.Ā
But I miss you! I miss you like crazy! And no apology will bring you back to me. Iāll never hold you in my arms again. Get to call you my best friend.Ā
It breaks me everyday. And I hate myself for it. That I was stupid enough to push you away....
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Sad write, felt the heartbreak running through it Jade ?
Thank you Marion!
Wow this was such a heartfelt write. The pain flows through the words like a river tumbling towards the sea x
Thank you, it was written for someone that I wish could see this.
Aww... If you really want them to see it, can you not slip it to them one-day? Leave it where they can find it? Is there a way? Just wondering... Although sometimes things are better left... But, then again, sometimes not ? x
Thatās true...I havenāt tried talking to them in a while...thanks for the idea:)
Go for it!Ā I wish you ALL the luck in the world ?? x