I refuse to doubt you

Born without you
Other things in your life had to reroute you
I remember telling them you died
Even as a kid about u I had to lie
Not one years has gone by that I haven't missed you
Since birth I wished I was with you
Unguided directions
Making all these  wrong selections
Life all mixed up, life so confused
Life full with battles with scars that prove
I swear I've been lost without you
I had to pay the cost... Without you
The God in me tells me to forgive
I just wish u seen me live
Born without you
Spent my life...trying to doubt you
I want to call you dad
I want something I never had
It's been too long now
I'm grown and strong right now
I need you more then ever
I've been this secret.....forever
I'm think damn 
I just want to shake, my dads hand
Born without you
But refuse to doubt u!