I'll Never See The Me You See

I’ll never see the me you see
Beauty and grace 
Simple words that leave me with a bitter taste 
Fractured and flawed 
Devastatingly depraved from the world around me
But you stay
Unafraid of my dangerous mind
The poison that leaks through the cracks that I hide
Cover the holes 
The scars 
And bruises
Stuck in a state of limbo
And still you wait
Never wavering from your post
Guarding and protecting this lifeless ghost
The grains of sand that fall
Quicksand to my heart
Slowly wasting breaths 
Unapologetically insane
This disease killing the cure
Running from the masses
Hysteria heightened with each will to live
Cutting down my progress
Slowly
I sink back into my hole
Solitude excluded 
as they poke and prod
Manifesting fears that were never there
This constant state of despair 
And still you wait