I'm done

I'm tired of pretending to the world that everything's ok,
That the world isn't falling around at my feet,
I'm tired of fighting another day.

This life I'm living has broke me,
I don't know who I am anymore,
My life is way beyond my control,
The pain I hold is raw.

I can't get over the things I have had done to me,
By people I thought I knew,
But that seems my soul purpose in life,
To be there to be abused.

My world is so small now,
It's getting harder to fight each day,
When the load I'm carrying gets heavier,
It never goes away.

He didn't just abuse my body,
My mind or my soul,
He took away the bit of me that I had left,
I will no longer be a whole.

Even my body attacks me,
Stopping me from standing back up,
So if it wasn't enough I'd lost the emotional fight,
My body is also fucked up.

I try so hard to keep going,
To pretend that there's still fight inside,
But it's gone, my life has taken it,
There's nowhere left to hide.

I'm broken, I'm bruised and I'm damaged,
Just the ghost of a girl I once knew,
There's no me left to fight for,
I'm done pretending it's time to be true.

I know I have people who think they love me,
How can you love someone that just isn't there,
Behind the facade of a person who'll keep going
When in truth I no longer care.

People tell me it will all get better,
Your wounds will heal in time,
That may be true for some,
But their wounds don't keep growing like mine.

I wish I could be who I used to be,
Take back the life I once had,
But how can I ever do that,
When all I am left with is bad? 

I'm sorry if you can't cope with my truths,
But they're that, not yours but mine,
Now after all of the hurting,
I've reached the end of the line.