I'm Happy Here

There was an instance I can say,
Where my life finally felt safe and whole.
When I cried silently, 
And she was there next to me.
Not chiding or deriding,
but there, taking my head into her lap.
She always laughs and says I'm too big.
That it's always hard to be big spoon for me,
So instead, she surrounds me.
She holds me close,
and lets me feel her heartbeat.
And she let me cry,
she let me ruin countless shirts.
She always quietly pets my hair,
and lets me work it out.
She never tries to shut me up,
but instead speaks calmly and softly.
That she loves me,
and that she'll always be there,
and that she thinks I'm strong,
for showing her my weaknesses.
That she loves me regardless,
and even more,
to see my true emotions,
And feel what I feel inside,
She always smiles at me,
and lets me curl up against her,
until the tears are gone.
She'll hum until I calm down,
and is always listening when I find my voice.
I might feel sad at the time,
but I always know that,
when I'm right next to her,
I'm happy there.
I'm happy here.
Where I am.