I'm still sending you a dead fish

I don’t know why I am thinking about you again

You shattered my heart into a million tiny pieces

So I don’t know why two months ago I decided to take you back

To reply to all the “I’m sorry emails” and to go against my better judgment

The whole time that we were apart, I secretly wished that we would get back together

When we started talking again it was as if my world had colors and creativity again.

You gave me something fun to look forward to. Talking to you made me smile and made me hopeful.

When we saw each other for the first time after 8 months of being apart. It was like nothing had changed… even though everything had.

I kept telling myself that every day with you was worth it.

Even if it was just one day, one hour… I’d be happy.

The last night that I saw you, you told me that “I think I’m falling for you again” and I wanted to believe, with all my heart, that this was true.

It would be a few weeks before I heard from you again and when I did we hardly talked.

It wasn’t like before when you couldn’t get enough of me.

And then… I started to notice the signs. You were acting the same way that you had before you broke up with me… the first time.

And I tried to tell myself that “He’s only not answering me now cuz he’s busy. Let him think that your easy going” but I knew that something was wrong.

And sure enough the very next day you changed your status to “in a relationship”

So it took you 7 months to try to contact me, 2 to spend time with me, a weekend to fall back in love with me and 2 weeks to get into a relationship with another girl.

I don’t know why I’m thinking about you again.

I deleted your number and have you blocked on all my accounts.

I don’t hate you. I just wish that I had never given you that second chance.

I’m not revengeful or anything…

But I’m still sending you a dead fish