I'm the abuser

Wouldn’t have known
Not until you told me 

I’m the smoking gun
one holding the key 

Everyday I hear the hurtful word
All those girls that you preferred

I lash out 
          You back out
                          I’m the abuser
 
Tiny snippets here and there 
I cannot simply go anywhere

Report to you what I do 
No one even has a clue
 
So again 
      I lash out 
                You back out 
                            I’m the abuser 

The never ending cycle
Talk of being suicidal 

I’m to blame 
Put out the flame 

No more emotion
Life Under suppression 

All words unspoken 
Never being awoken 

I start to cry 
You complain why
 
I’m so lost 
Didn’t know the cost 

So I lash out
               You back out 
                            I’m the abuser