in my blood

A mist of pain I feel it’s approaching
It grows in the distance
 I shout
I hear laughing that echoes so close
My hand stretches out

Silence now but my watch starts commotion
Tick tick ticking
A constant reminder
Of the life that I’m still wishing

Packing my bags to start a beginning
Who are you kidding?

 I sleep deeply to pass the time
My pillow like a sponge
My own blood is toxic
My new computer chip you munge

Guilt like a brick on my shoulder
But I’ve done nothing
I plead
It doesn’t stop you throwing that boulder

I feel blue
That pain that you carry you don’t see it
I carry it for you
But never to admit

I watch the sunrise through the glass
You hug me tight
Im hopeful
No,you’re ready for a fight.