what people dont see

Sometimes im dead inside
An i can hear my silent cries
Quietly in my mind
Blackand in depression
But who will that define
Grasping on to reality
With hurt pain & tears
Trying to be strong
Facing demons and my fears
So many thoughts within
Trying to focus
Being with out u pish pash
Hocus pocus
I no im not the easiest
When it comes to understanding
Im the diamond in the rough
Just needs some gentle handling
I am original purest as they come
Destroyed from my past inside feeling numb
Letting go of the ball and chain
That drowns me in my  sorrow
Wishing an praying
In hopes of a better  tomarrow
Ive come so far to be pushed back down
Forgiven most this time around
I owe nothing to no one
For i have proven enough
So i begin my journey even tho it might be rough
I stand on two feet that god have given me
An i will continue my faith pushing wait an
watch youll see
…….2 be continued