Is anyone listening?

is there anyone I can actually talk to?

i feel so alone,

i try to talk,

i don't think anyone hears me though,

there are people who say they're my friends,

but they're only around when I'm ok,

where are they when I'm not?

ive learnt to put on a smile,

thats really the only time people care,

they all want to know what's made me happy,

but never what's made me sad,

or angry,

i get angry a lot,

over stupid things,

like my mind can't process anything that isn't numbness,

i try to talk,

only to find myself sourounded by munch own mind,

what I wouldn't give to be surrounded by someone else's,

even just for a little while