It isn't just me

My head was spinning, going round and round 
i wanted to run away and not be found
sometimes I'd cry 
people ask I couldn't say why 
I've gotten so shy 
I can't even look anyone in the eye 
Oh when will this stop? 
I want to curl up under that rock
I just can't explain 
It's like there's never sun always rain
They won't understand theyll think that I'm lyibg But everyday I swear in really trying
I should be out there having fun
Not screaming inside wanting to run
My heart is pounding really fast
I hate this feeling how long will it Last? 
As soon as I come out of my door 
I automatically look at the floor
Hands are Cammy
Knees going bammy
Deep breathing 
Stomach heaving
I want to be who I used to be 
Because the truth is this horrible illness has taken over me 
I have depression
And noone out there taught me the lesson 
About the lonliest, darkest place you can go 
When life and stuff has got you feeling so low 
Its a daily chore 
Some days less others more 
I started to talk 
And walked the walk
I will lend a hand
Because I really understand
When feeling alone is all you can feel 
When really and truly you just want to heal 
When your mind becomes so sick 
Its something that you wouldn't pick
But I will give you that listening ear 
And let you know that I am here 

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