Selfish

Lately I’m not myself 
I think
thats good 
who I was before 
I’m told 
wasn’t good 
it’s hard for me 
to read 
to dissect 
to leave good feedback 
for others 
for friends 
even my undeserving family 
I’m sorry 
it’s a 
phase I’m going through 
I apologize 
to those 
to who 
to you, him, her 
My flaws 
are greater 
than my strength sometimes 
it’s sad 
it’s mad 
it kills me inside 
to hide 
to write 
to fight these demons 
hang on 
let go 
either way I understand 
I didn’t 
try to 
ever plan this ever 
but it’s 
the reality 
of my current situation 
it’s hopefully 
only just 
a phase right now 
not later 
not again 
but it’s who I 
AM NOW