It's ME

You cant hide 
behind a name 
Years ago 
I was Rob Grove 
On this website 
I wasn't sure then 
the power of poetry 
I neglected my profile 
all my poems then 
were about heartbreak 
Then during Covid 19
I re-Discovered my profile 
I was at the lowest of lows 
just lost the love of MY LIFE 
I hated who I was 
I was the product of 
A BAD PAST 
that I NEVER DEALT WITH 
many skeletons rested 
In my closet 
So I created Reborn-Rob
a fictitious character 
that allowed me to ACCEPT 
the past by not actually 
OWNING IT 
See I was a NARCASSIST 
and we can't be seen 
any less than PERFECT
​​​400 poems later 
the truth that was buried 
​​​was awaken from my 
CHILDHOOD GRAVE 
so many memories 
I suppressed from fear 
So many horror stories 
that I never healed from 
I had a ton of support 
along with haters too
They didn't UNDERSTAND 
or SEE what I was going through 
With each write, song, story, poem, freestyle 
I felt so much better and the weight of the past drama 
WASNT DICTATING MY LIFE 
Shortly after 
I became sick with 
my entire profile 
and felt I needed to 
MOVE-ON 
That's when I created
SHALLOW WATERS 
figuring I made it back to 
Mental-shore 
NO MORE GOING OFF THE 
DEEP-END 
That lasted awhile 
mostly going through my past lovers and the drama 
It felt better to be a part of 
Calmer waters 
But then ....... 
I realized ...
MY MENTAL DISORDER
was still controlling me 
I WAS HIDING BEHIND 
ALL THESE NAMES 
and that's when 
Robert James Grove 
WAS ACCEPTED 
knowing ALL three profiles 
WERE HIM 
With all the pain, hurt, abuse
baggage and bad decisions 
WERE MINE TO OWN 
I gave up my personification that ONLY I HAD ABOUT ME 
I wasn't fooling anyone 
BUT MYSELF 
Now I'm coping with it all 
A-Z but accepting it's always been ME these are 
MY SCARS to
OVERCOME