It’s your birthday,
it’s just another day.
Today, I want to cry.
Right now actually, I want to cry.
I want to curl up into the tightest ball in an abyss of nothing and cry. I’m in the abyss of nothing, all curled up in my ball.
So why can’t I cry?
Why can’t I break down and let go, when I’m so very desperate to do so?
Happy 18th birthday, I’m not who I thought I’d turn out to be. The big world once so distant and unalarming, has been pushed into my face, I can’t find my feet and I can hardly breathe. The only present I’ll receive is a past letter written by and for me. With my handwriting my name is scrawled in big letters, I wonder what it says. I can vaguely remember the words as they bounce around my head. So hard to catch and read, I’ll have to wait for some privacy, to read my birthday letter.
Happy 18th birthday, to me.
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That poem is filled with a kind of freedom I had forgotten about....until I got to where you said the big world, so unalarming, had been pushed into your face......something like that.....at that moment I got a strange little tingling and have been inspired to write something now......Seriously......Thank you my friend.....I'm Tony.......When I'm finished I will send something to your private message box!!......Thax again......just for being you......and......HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!.......you're the coolest!!......smiles.....T xo " )
Damn, that bloody Tony beat me to it! ;) He`s so awesome, isn't he? Well, I just wanted to say I really like this work, just seemed to resonate with me, I identify with being a bit of an odd egg too. I can't say that I completely understand your problems because that wouldn't be right for me to do. But I can say that this is excellent poetry and an awsome place to write about it. Cosmos is such a warm place. I hope you find peace and Happy Birthday! Kind regards, The Fish of the Sea.